Sunsets, Running, and Rap Music

just a short post. I am tired of waiting. as much as God is saying wait be patient. I'm tired of waiting. I have been patient for 3 years. 3 years of watching my friends get married 3 years of watching people get engaged 3 years of me not being on a single date. not that I haven't been asked the guys that ask just aren't what I am looking for and so in order to not lead them on I respectfully decline. but 3 years of not being on a single date makes me wonder if telling God I want to marry the next guy I date was a mistake....

I didn't get it. The practicum that I have been waiting for. The one thing that could have gotten me out of where i am and onto what i want to do with my life, gone. All i have ever wanted to do is be with kids, love kids, make their lives something it isn't. I want to show them Jesus in a time when their lives seem to be falling apart. My entire college career dedicated to a major that makes everyone think you want to teach. Having to constantly explain what a Child Life Specialist is. It all feels wasted now. I had almost given up on Child life and was going to settle for patient activity. so i sent out 15 cover letters and resumes to hospitals all over the country, didnt hear a word back so i decided to go back to the dream. Now, that dream is crushed. Any hope I had of doing child life is now put on hold once again. maybe my reaction to reading the letter was a little extreme but boy did it feel good to stick it in my grill and burn it. It still doesnt answer my question...