Faking It....Stop That
So i have been irritated today, more than usual, about people being fake. More specifically what i will refer to as "part-time friends". I have a few friends that lately i feel like are "friends" with me out of obligation or necessity rather than by choice.
--- Dont worry, this isnt going to be "THAT" kind of post. Spent a little time reading "LOVE DOES" before i decided i needed to blog and listen to whatever it is God is going to reveal to me through this post. In case youre wondering that is the REASON i blog, I find that God uses my words and questions that i type out as my own thoughts in order to bring clarity to every situation. ---
Anyway, I just have days where i feel like, "yay friends are everywhere yay" and then there are days where i feel like each and every text i send is the most obnoxious thing ever. And it is not necessarily by fault of the recipient, they may be at the lake or just really busy that day or whatever. But when it is a daily ignored text or a daily short response I feel unwanted as a friend.
Let me clarify, I am VERY passionate about my friendships and relationships. The longer i have been friends with someone the harder i fight to fix any bump in the relationship.
I recently asked a friend (who doesnt read my blog) but whom i have been friends with for almost 5 years, "Do you just not want to be my friend anymore?" this went into more detail about how i just feel like every time i text or speak to him i feel like i am annoying him. He kept saying "no i dont mean to make you feel ignored" and "i want to be your friend" My response was simple.. "Then please show me that." He has yet to deliver on his actions and i realize that i keep fighting to maintain the friendship because i love this dear friend and i dont want to lose that but something has changed recently with him. I dont know what is going on but it is frustrating because he and i have already been in a fight that i thought was resolved, he apologized admitted he was wrong and i thought we moved on from that. but goodness kid.
But others have been doing this lately. The last time he and i were at odds i tried for months to fix it and it wasnt until i realized when God made a billboard and hung it on my nose that "THIS IS BIGGER THAN YOU!!!" I guess i need to realize that again. "LINDS, YOU CANT FIX EVERYTHING!"
(God isnt yelling at me he just has a HUGE voice.)
The chapter of Love Does that i just read was about trading in your little life for the bigger better life that God has. We hold on to all the little idiosyncrasies of life and the things that we hold as idols in our lives above God. The truth is that i may be holding relationships and friends above my relationship with Christ.
I really need to be cut off from the world for a few hours if not a day or so, (i say as my phone dings) and remember who has my heart and will treat it with the ultimate respect.... no matter how much i ignore Him.
I just wish people would be honest, and stop pretending to want to be friends if they really dont want to be. I would stop wasting my time pursuing friendships with these people for sure....
WHEW! Okay, BIG NEWS! for those who only keep up with me via BLOGGGGGG....
Someone drumroll..... or you can all drumroll in your heads.... ready
ratatatatattattatatattttatatatattatatatatatatarollllll
IM MOVING TO PENSACOLA!!!
Thats right! I got the internship with Sacred Heart Childrens Hospital!
Say hello to my new home until december!
--- Dont worry, this isnt going to be "THAT" kind of post. Spent a little time reading "LOVE DOES" before i decided i needed to blog and listen to whatever it is God is going to reveal to me through this post. In case youre wondering that is the REASON i blog, I find that God uses my words and questions that i type out as my own thoughts in order to bring clarity to every situation. ---
Anyway, I just have days where i feel like, "yay friends are everywhere yay" and then there are days where i feel like each and every text i send is the most obnoxious thing ever. And it is not necessarily by fault of the recipient, they may be at the lake or just really busy that day or whatever. But when it is a daily ignored text or a daily short response I feel unwanted as a friend.
Let me clarify, I am VERY passionate about my friendships and relationships. The longer i have been friends with someone the harder i fight to fix any bump in the relationship.
I recently asked a friend (who doesnt read my blog) but whom i have been friends with for almost 5 years, "Do you just not want to be my friend anymore?" this went into more detail about how i just feel like every time i text or speak to him i feel like i am annoying him. He kept saying "no i dont mean to make you feel ignored" and "i want to be your friend" My response was simple.. "Then please show me that." He has yet to deliver on his actions and i realize that i keep fighting to maintain the friendship because i love this dear friend and i dont want to lose that but something has changed recently with him. I dont know what is going on but it is frustrating because he and i have already been in a fight that i thought was resolved, he apologized admitted he was wrong and i thought we moved on from that. but goodness kid.
But others have been doing this lately. The last time he and i were at odds i tried for months to fix it and it wasnt until i realized when God made a billboard and hung it on my nose that "THIS IS BIGGER THAN YOU!!!" I guess i need to realize that again. "LINDS, YOU CANT FIX EVERYTHING!"
(God isnt yelling at me he just has a HUGE voice.)
The chapter of Love Does that i just read was about trading in your little life for the bigger better life that God has. We hold on to all the little idiosyncrasies of life and the things that we hold as idols in our lives above God. The truth is that i may be holding relationships and friends above my relationship with Christ.
I really need to be cut off from the world for a few hours if not a day or so, (i say as my phone dings) and remember who has my heart and will treat it with the ultimate respect.... no matter how much i ignore Him.
I just wish people would be honest, and stop pretending to want to be friends if they really dont want to be. I would stop wasting my time pursuing friendships with these people for sure....
WHEW! Okay, BIG NEWS! for those who only keep up with me via BLOGGGGGG....
Someone drumroll..... or you can all drumroll in your heads.... ready
ratatatatattattatatattttatatatattatatatatatatarollllll
IM MOVING TO PENSACOLA!!!
Thats right! I got the internship with Sacred Heart Childrens Hospital!
Say hello to my new home until december!
YAY! So yeah im florida bound in about 4 weeks but before i go Im taking a roadtrip to FAYETTEVILLE!!!! I miss my friends, and my city. Im coming for ya NWA!
Also, If youve never listened to JOHNNYSWIM before you should start....
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