Sunsets, Running, and Rap Music

Okay, i know friends, its been awhile. and so this post will give you a lot of my heart at the moment, and it is hard..to be so transparent...but it will also be long. You guys dont know it but i keep a list throughout the periods of time between blogs. and it has been a long time. So....My list, although i cant seem to locate it for the first time in weeks..i think i remember some of it. so you get the edited version. Fasting Adoption Friendships Men... (sorry. this will probably be the long one. skip if you wish) MY MARINE! I write my blog just as thoughts that cross my mind, (explanation of the randomness..welcome to my brain friends) Ill start with Friendships: I am so blessed. If you are a part of my life i am blessed to know you. I was reminded of how amazing my friends are today, when i got to share a sweet conversation with my friend Xuan. i usually see Xuan at least twice a week and last week was lacking in Xuan time. I saw her for a minute at church but you dont ...

I'm getting really irritated by the people that are anti-invisible children just so they can be different. They are comparing joseph Kony and his armies to bloods and crips gangs in America...the bloods and crips are not abducting 6 year old boys and girls out of their beds at night and forcing them to murder their parents or making them into sex slaves...people are saying most of the money raised goes towards filmmaking and advertisements and not toward the children...they don't understand that Kony2012 is about the advertisement. It is to make people know what is going on. I'm infuriated by people acting like this is no big deal! I'll have more to add later but people need to know who this monster is. The point of the film is to get our governments attention, it isn't so that each of us can have the funds to go to Uganda and find Kony ourselves, it is so our government will see that this is Important to the American people so the government won't pull the troo...

How powerful is a smile, something so simple that gives so much. How weird is it that in our culture something as simple as showing someone your teeth can give them such a good feeling. Something that animals see as a threat we see as something that lowers barriers, reduces threat, and can totally change your perspective of a person. A smile can take even the worst of enemies and completely change their feelings about one another, a sarcastic smile can do quite the opposite. a smile that is misread can take friends, and make them into enemies. This crossed my mind earlier when i was getting my nails done. The son of the man doing my nails was standing next to me staring into the mirror, and me being me, I was watching him in the mirror, i saw him shift his glance to me and he continued to look at me, i looked to my left at him and smiled, he grinned the biggest grin i have ever seen and giggled and ran to his mom, hugged her and continued to smile. a smile shared creates a bond, jo...

Sitting here looking at my journal, on one side scribbles of verses that really stood out to me today and on the other side a ripped sheet of paper detailing my "To Do" List for the day. How sad is it that I couldnt even spend 2 hours with Jesus before my mind got so wrapped up with what i "need to do" today. As hungry as i am for Him my mind is so consumed with the things that are necessary by the worlds standards, granted the things on the list are very important: Amber Bank Budget Haircut Homework But these things (as much as i Love Amber) are not more important than my relationship with the Lord. I was distracted by making sure I go to the bank so i can know how much money i have after i write a check for my tithe that my mind went out of the Word and into distraction mode.  The other side of that same journal is covered in verse after verse of what God was trying to say to me today.  I have written and underlined "The Love of Christ Controls Us" I...

I was sitting around trying to come up with what I would say today, so as I sit here watching the Grammy's and listening to some amazing voices I am still trying to decide on a specific topic. So many thoughts going through my mind and this is just one way for me to organize them all. Today was difficult, I didn't feel like going to church this morning because I felt so sick, but I was also incredibly hungry for the Word and knew I needed it, so I got myself up and ready and went. Boy was I glad I did. Gregg's message on marriage was incredible! He talked about how if our focus isn't God then our relationship with a spouse cannot be right. God HAS to come first or it wont be possible for us to put our spouse ahead of ourselves. This all reminded me of what I have been reading in Undressed this week. MY focus needs to shift from "okay God where's my husband," to "okay God, I trust that you know what is best, YOU are all I need." That is the only...

I really struggled this morning to stay focused when reading the next few chapters in Corinthians. I started where I left off yesterday with 1 Corinthians 16 and then went on to 2 Corinthians 1-3...But something about it wasn't right. I wasn't seeing the same things that I have been seeing in each chapter like I have been recently. So it got me thinking, what is distracting me. Well, that could be a number of things, It could be the deep longing that I have to know what God has planned for me this year, it could be that I am not working with kids as much as I want to be. (Although the kids and babies that come through the office for adjustments or with their moms really make my day.) It could be the ridiculousness that is this online class that I forget about and then remember that I don't have a diploma yet, just an empty diploma case. Or it could simply be that I want to be a wife more than I want to be patient and wait for God to blow my mind with all of those things. Th...

I am not sure what I want this blog to be. The musings of a young heart calling out to her Savior, or a rant about the latest Bachelor gossip. All I really know is that I want to blog. I have a lot of thoughts and some of them are too personal or too strange ( in my eyes) to be conversations used over a dinner. I miss writing, I was on the newspaper staff in high school and when we were given the opportunity to write a column we all jumped at the chance. So just like that, with the inputting of a password and finally coming up with an interesting yet witty address here I am, posting my first...well post on my first blog (post-Xanga) we were far ahead of the times with that now weren't we? Although I think that all of our posts then were what boy we liked and who our best friends were. This blog on the other hand wont be as much about who my current best friend is, and more about what the Lord is doing in my life. I have recently been reading a lot more than I used to. Both script...